Round 11 (or 12?)- Freefall

[kass]

1) The endgame is approaching quickly! What are you doing to make it to the F2/F3?


I'm going to stay true to my real allies. Candice and Katie are two of my closest friends and they're also the two people I believe I have the best chance against in a FTC. Yul is far too likable despite being not the sharpest in terms of strategic foresight. At this point, Candice/Katie/myself have a final 3 deal which to my knowledge is legit. The only wrench will be when it's Final 3 (since I'm assuming at this point it's Final 2). I don't want to have to vote out either of Candice or Katie because they're both very good friends of mine but it may ultimately come down to that if I want to wind up winning.

2) Do you think you'll win the jury's votes if you make it to the finals?


Depends on how the jury votes and who I'm up against. I'd presumably come close to sweeping against Candice. Katie's a bit more up in the air in terms of which votes she'd get. I think if I went to the end with Katie, she'd sap up Teresa's vote for sure. Austin would probably vote for her too since I imagine he's none too thrilled with me for backstabbing him (despite his not sharing an idol with me and saying we were F2 soooooo that's on him not me) and he also gave her credit for the blindside. I think if I lose FIC and don't boot Candice, I get her vote, Brian's, and Julie's. Todd and the others are up in the air but I think I have an edge.

3) What is the plan for this vote?

The plan as of now is to pick off Yul. If he wins Immunity, it'll be LJ. It's pretty simple and I like it that way.

[kass]

So apparently Julie's the one who's been taking my karma. Guess she figured out who I was. Whoops. I don't feel bad for her though. In too many games she's gone out of her way to manipulate and distort information as well as being a borderline sociopath by saying she can't feel empathy and how she has to leave a room if a conversation doesn't interest her and doesn't bother to talk to people. She goes out of her way to use people, feign relationships and somehow is a victim after it's all said and done.

An actual quote from Julie's confessional in another game...

"Did you know that the reason why is because I legitimately cannot feel empathy for other people, and as a purely biological imperative, I can't actually make myself genuinely care about them or find their daily lives interesting without consciously faking an interest on some level? It's not that I don't want to care, or that I don't understand why I should - I just biologically cannot do it because that's how my brain works. It actually causes me physical pain to have a conversation about something I'm not interested in"

So she chalks it up to a disability (which I'm aware she has) but it's also everyone else's fault for not being interesting enough to converse with her? The 'causes me physical pain to have a conversation about something I'm not interested in' is what gets me. Like GOD FORBID you have to talk with people who don't check every one of your necessities. That's just a general part of being life and being a person, interacting with those you're uncomfortable around. To dismiss them is plain elitist and smug.

The reason I'm so frustrated by Julie is because she's taking my karma, I assume she's going to attempt to taint the jury to not vote for me because she's butthurt (it's reached the point where I'm almost certain that I'll make it to FTC. Cocky, I know). Like...I apologize that my friends outside the game, Katie and Candice, aren't fans of her but the numbers were there regardless so to complain that I didn't TELL HER I was in the game (so she obviously couldn't use and manipulate me and my emotions). People who know me out of this game know that I'm an incredibly emotional person so this is the first time in a while that I've tried to play with my head as much as possible and NOT let my heart get in the way. The fact that Julie will probably lash out at me at FTC for being a "bad" person is a really awful feeling because I feel like I played a damn good game and I'm a damn good person outside of this game. I don't like my character being attacked by anyone, but especially not by people who go out of their way to do the following...

1. Play the Victim- Literally every time I've dealt with Julie in a game, she's ALWAYS the victim of someone or something and for some reason, everyone is sooooo mean to her and she just can't fathom why. For example, in this game, she'll blame her ouster on me being a bad person or being a spineless bitch to Katie when in actuality, I didn't feel like it was worth it to go against the grain.

2. Have a Double Standard- Julie is a master at the art of the double standard. She has absolutely no problem with lying to people, feigning relationships, and talking about them as people out of the game (even going as far to accuse a good friend of mine of CHEATING in a past game because he beat her and he DESERVED the win obviously) but when someone does it to her? HOW DARE THEY?!?!?! They're suddenly horrible bullies who have to rely on pre-game politics to advance further when that's really not true.

3. Is a Condescending Ass- Julie goes out of her way to make others feel unintelligent and touts herself as this master robotic strategist. Everyone has to see things her way because she's alwaysintherightalwaysintherightalwaysintherightalwaysintheright(-- Helen Wood BBUK15). It gets to a point where she clearly values some people so little, that she just comes off as this smug, entitled bitch. She unfortunately suffers from an inflated ego which doesn't allow her to see things from anyone else's perspective or, God forbid, acknowledge someone else is right.

I apologize for the rant on a juror but I felt like this was necessary to explain more as to why the Julie ouster happened from a perspective of someone who knows her from a lot of games (though those personal reasons didn't factor into my vote, I believe they might have been a part of Katie or Candice's). It just got to a point where I felt this needed to be said.